A year... A whole year without you. In some ways it feels like years since I last saw you but, in other ways it feels like just yesterday. I miss you so much.
You were always there to help us out whenever we needed you and you basically brought me up and taught me manners, knowledge and skills, making me the person today. You were so influential to me and encouraged me to not just do my best but, realise what my 'best' actually was. That's one of the reasons I'm so determined, I do it for you. I want to make you proud of everything I do in life, from a career to a family.
You always made me laugh when you'd talk about guys to me saying 'none of them can be as good looking as me'. I wish that before you died you could've just met the guy I'm going to marry(even though I don't know who that it), just to see what you think of him. I hope he's as family orientated and kind as you were.
In the few weeks before you died I kept saying to myself I'd get a photo of us both together but, I was too late for that. I wanted us to both be happy and smiling but, there wasn't much of that. Most of all, I wanted you to be here until my birthday. I know you wanted to too. You wanted to be here until your 50th wedding anniversary which past this year.
Nan's always telling me tales from when you were younger and I can honestly say you were the best couple I've ever known and one day I want a marriage like yours. Even the whole fake arguments between you made me laugh because of how cute it all was. You called her the dragon but, you insisted on being buddha 'face of a god, body of buddha' you'd say.
You were not only one of the smartest people I know but, also the funniest. Nan may say it was childish humour but, it always made me smile when you rearranged my trolley in asda when I wasn't looking and when you kept calling me bob, bill or fred and insisted that was my name.
Now, you're up there in heaven with bradley, catching up on all the years you've missed together, having grandad and grandson time, I just wish I could've had more time with you.
It's been a year since you passed away and I still think of you everyday. I love you and words can't describe how much I miss you. I wish you were still sitting there when I walk through the living room door and I could see your face, hug you one more time. I'd say I love you and like usual, you'd say 'I love me too.'
Love from
Laura
Harry Matthews
7/4/1941 - 26/11/2012
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