Dear Gramps

Dear Gramps,
      A year... A whole year without you. In some ways it feels like years since I last saw you but, in other ways it feels like just yesterday. I miss you so much.
    You were always there to help us out whenever we needed you and you basically brought me up and taught me manners, knowledge and skills, making me the person today. You were so influential to me and encouraged me to not just do my best but, realise what my 'best' actually was. That's one of the reasons I'm so determined, I do it for you. I want to make you proud of everything I do in life, from a career to a family.
    You always made me laugh when you'd talk about guys to me saying 'none of them can be as good looking as me'. I wish that before you died you could've just met the guy I'm going to marry(even though I don't know who that it), just to see what you think of him. I hope he's as family orientated and kind as you were.
    In the few weeks before you died I kept saying to myself I'd get a photo of us both together but, I was too late for that. I wanted us to both be happy and smiling but, there wasn't much of that. Most of all, I wanted you to be here until my birthday. I know you wanted to too. You wanted to be here until your 50th wedding anniversary which past this year.
    Nan's always telling me tales from when you were younger and I can honestly say you were the best couple I've ever known and one day I want a marriage like yours. Even the whole fake arguments between you made me laugh because of how cute it all was. You called her the dragon but, you insisted on being buddha 'face of a god, body of buddha' you'd say.
    You were not only one of the smartest people I know but, also the funniest. Nan may say it was childish humour but, it always made me smile when you rearranged my trolley in asda when I wasn't looking and when you kept calling me bob, bill or fred and insisted that was my name.
    Now, you're up there in heaven with bradley, catching up on all the years you've missed together, having grandad and grandson time, I just wish I could've had more time with you.
    It's been a year since you passed away and I still think of you everyday. I love you and words can't describe how much I miss you. I wish you were still sitting there when I walk through the living room door and I could see your face, hug you one more time. I'd say I love you and like usual, you'd say 'I love me too.'

                 Love from
                 Laura

 

 

 

Harry Matthews

7/4/1941 - 26/11/2012

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November = Busy!

November's always a busy month for me, because I spend the whole of it getting really excited for my birthday which is at the end of the month. It also seems to be pretty much everybody elses birthday this month too! So, there's a lot of celebrating.

Amongst all that though, on the 26th it will be a year since my Grandad passed away. I keep thinking that I won't be able to say 'this time last year, he was alive and we were watching batman together' or something along those lines.
It some ways it seems like just yesterday I saw him and everything was great but, at the same time it seems like years since I've seen him. I'm always scared that I'll forget what he sounded like, or the jokes he made. He was a lot like a dad to me and was always there to encourage me, not only in school but, in all the things I love. Mostly, in school though, since he loved boasting about the grades I got and saying I got my brains from him!

I could go on but, those are just a few thoughs... and i'm busy.

New video with my brothers

It's been a year since I first made a video with my little brothers so, I thought it would be nice to do a new question type video as a kind of catch up. I think this would be nice to do each year... until they refuse to be in my videos!
It would be really great if you could check it out and maybe share it on facebook/twitter.

Youtube Thoughts

In School, recently I've been learning about marxism and class divisions, who makes the decisions and who benefits from them. Since I'm obsessed with yourube, I applied it all to that and here's the outcome:

 

 

It would be great if you could tell me in the comments your view on what I mentioned and we can have a chat!

A Day In The Life Of Me!

Here's my new video, a day in the life of me, feauturing McFly!(they're not in my life everyday, just this day, okay?!)

You can subscribe to my youtube channel for more videos, by clicking here

:D



Shan's Birthday Celebrations!

This Monday just gone(23rd) was my best friend, Shannon's 18th Birthday. So, obviously it was a big celebration!

(Naaww!!! Look at us!)

    I went along with Shan and some of her family to London for the weekend to celebrate and we had a great time! We decided against all of the usual tourist attractions since, we'd all seen the London eye and Big Ben before. Instead, we took a trip to the British Music museum at the o2, which was so good(if you're into music history). They had so much memorabilia there and a music room full of Gibson guitars and a little sound booth, which we spent quite a while in, recording some Girl Aloud songs!
    On Sunday we got on the tube and went to Camden craft market which had some really pretty jewellery pieces. It also had a whole stall that sold the most beautiful vintage reconditioned cameras, I wanted ALL of them!!!
    I had a wonderful time in London, on our mini break. Experiencing the underground was pretty weird, I'm not really sure what I think of it. I had to make sure I was by the door though as I just wanted to get on and off in the right places!

    On the 23rd, which was Shans actual birthday, I presented her with her gifts. I got her a Stitch onesie, along with a song that I wrote and video to go along with it(that She cried at!!!). Here it is, if you want to have a little cry(or, if you're just a little nosey :P ).

    That night, we attended the Paramore concert, which was so great an just the perfect end to Shan's birthday celebrations, since they're on of her favourite bands!

   

Youtube Survey 2013

Here's my new video, feel free to take part in the survey yourself, in fact, I'd love to know your answers!

As Level Results

    So, this time last year I wrote a post announcing my GCSE results. They were pretty good, if I do say so myself! This year I had my As level results. Studying this year has been so different from school and throughout the year I was wondering if college was the right thing for me but, what else would I even do?!

Anyway, onto the results:

• A - Communication and culture: This subject is the easiest ever and I enjoyed it because most of it was applying the information to myself however, next year it gets a bit weird. I've looked at the coursework topics and have no idea what I'm gonig to do. Also, my video editing software got deleted so, I need to edit that coursework with somthing that's not windows movie maker!
• C - Business: I plan on dropping this and didn't even revise for the second exam so, I think I did pretty well! Business can now get out of my life... Go on, GO!
• C - English Literature: In the break down of my results it said I got a B and a D, I'm not sure wihch is for the exam and which is for the coursework but, if I got a D in the coursework, I'll redo that to bring my grade up. I'm not really sure on resitting the exam though!
• C - Biology: This is what I was most dissapointed with, I love biology and really wanted to do better. It is a good grade compared to others though and I can get back on the course with that. Also, I may resit the practical exam to bring my grade up since, that happened when my Gramps died so, I don't even think I even completed it!

They're not as good as I wanted them to be but, I did better than a lot of others. I shouldn't moan, I'm back into college! Besides, I don't even thing anyone reads this so, it doesn't matter! It's just if you look at my GCSE results, I didn't even get a C and I have pretty high expectations of myself.

I have a whole year to improve the grades and get them up. I don;t even know what I want to do yet and I still have work experience and things like that to go to.

As well as my results, yesterday, I also got offered my first job interview. It's a group interview and I'm so nervous so, to all you out there(the 1 person that reads this): Do you have any tips?
tweet them to me: @LauraSaidHey

:D
LOVE YOU!!!

Choices

    Everyone has to make choices on a daily basis, some affecting your entire life, others just a small aspect of it.
    Currently, in my life I have many choices; which university do I choose? What course do I study? Like many other people, I have NO idea... It's so frustrating meeting someone that knows exactly what they want to do!
These choices will depend upon my college results and it seems far too soon to be making these choices after only one year in college. Two years in college seems like such a short time when having so many important desicions. I get my first years results in a few days and they could affect what courses I continue with and therefore, what I do in the future.
     Since it is the college holidays, I've been trying not to think of all this(it probably doesn't help the situation) so, instead give myself other choices like 'Which youtube video do I upload?' and 'Do I start a new channel?' Although these may seem like small choices to make, they're important to me so, I want to make the right desicions.

Basically, HELP ME SORT MY LIFE OUT!!!

Update: It's been a while!

So, I have no idea what happened to the whole 'regularly blogging' thing, sorry!

So, I've now finished my first year at college! Wooo!! Next year will be so much worse though. Unlike how most people drop a subject, I have to pick one up so, I can do the course that I want to do at university.... thinking of that, I need to start writing my personal statement.

At the moment though, I'll be doing nothing. Not just because it's the college holidays but, I fell down the stairs and my ankle's REALLY hurting. I don't think it's broken but, it's quite swollen so, I currently have a packet of frozen peas on it... classy!

By now, you probably know I have a youtube channel HERE IT IS! I've really got into making videos and the holidays are giving me more time to film and edit which I enjoy doing... apart from the fact my camera and editing software are rubbish.

If I had a job, I'd be able to save up money to buy these things but, I don't. I've applied for so many but, just get turned down :(

As well as the video making, I've recently found an interest in watching beauty videos. I've always liked make up and I love watching youtubers make up hauls so, let me know if you wouldn't mind those

Being honest, I don't know when I'll next vlog! Haha!
BYE!

New Song

 few days ago, well actually last week. I uploaded a new song onto my youtube channel:

it has't got a name yet so, it would be great if you could suggest one. Tweet me your suggestions: @LauraSaidHey

Here's the lyrics:

Wait a second, He's not there yet.
Wait a second, She's been waiting hours.
She is cold and her clothes are wet.
What were you donig getting coffee instead?
You didn't even, smile or kiss her.
She will remember this day forever.
You' be off soon and she knows it.
Oh, she loves you, she loves you.

CHORUS:
And you, run away.
Past every dream she ever had.
What happened to love and promises?
you're not down on one knee yet.
Oh, you're not down on one knee yet.
Do you love her?

She went through the birth, all alone.
Family disowned her, all she had is hope.
trying to raise a man and not a boy.
Making sure he played with the right toys.
No one wants him to turn out like you.
A male that left when he saw the line turn blue.
She still remembers his final words.
I was breaking up anyway, it won't work anyway.

CHORUS:
And you, run away.
Past every dream she ever had.
What happened to love and promises?
you're not down on one knee yet.
Oh, you're not down on one knee yet.
Do you love her?

Oh and in a dream,
you said to her.
you would never leave, never go,
never find another home.

Oh and in that dream,
you said to her.
you would never leave, never go,
never find another home.

CHORUS:
And you, run away.
Past every dream she ever had.
What happened to love and promises?
you're not down on one knee yet.
Oh, you're not down on one knee yet.
Do you love her?

:D
LOVE YOUUUUUU!!!

NEW VIDEOOO

Hey! I know, blog posts haven't been very often again!, sorry!
I've recently been worknig really hard on my videos and the content in them. I'm especially very happy with my new video and it would mean a lot ot me if you had a little look at it.
If you liked it, maybe you could subscribe to my channel.

THANKS!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

Here's the video I made about the Upload Tour

They're planning an Upload Tour 2!!!!

University Trip

I know I'm only in the first year of doing my A-levels but, my college encourages us to go to university open days and master classes.
Yesterday, I went on a trip with the gifted an talented group to Cambridge University. It's really nice that that group of people think that I could get into it but, my colleges careers advisor doesn't even mention that university to me. A lot of my family are also encouraging me to go there it's just I noticed some things about it that aren't that good.

• Being made up of different colleges, means that you choose one to live in but, your lectures could also be in other colleges.
• Most people get to the other colleges by cycling which, I hate and buying a bike would not exactly be at the top of my list of things to buy. Anyway, what happens in bad weather conditions, like snow?
• They have lectures on SATURDAYS!!! As if I wouldn't be stressed out enough with 12 hours of lectures, 3 - 6 hours of practicals and meetings with tutors?!

There's probably a few other things but, I can't think of them at the moment. Cambridge was a lovely place though but, I'm not sure if it actually would be the best choice.

HELP!

The Upload Tour

Yesterday, I went to the Upload tour. As soon as the tour was anounced, I planned on getting tickets but my lovely friend Lauren got them for me as a Christmas Present.
What she didn't tell me was she'd paid a bit extra to buy the three of us a signed poster, I told you she's lovely.

The whole gig was amazing so, yes, I am going to tell you aallll about it!
So, first on stage was Tom Law.... yes, TOM FRIGGIN LAW!! He was so amazing and seems like a great guy. He seemed so happy being on stage, joking with the crowd and just having a good time. I have to say, for the size of the audience, we were pretty good at singing along!
After Tom, it was BriBry's turn, he was equally amazing and he has such a random sense of humour, for example when he said 'If Tom law was a dolphin, his song would be touch my fin, not touch my skin' -_- I know! haha :D
It was Edd Plants home gig as he comes from Birmingham so, that was pretty cool. I hadn't heard much of his music but, I really enjoyed his set. It was also the same with Dave Giles, I didn't know many of his songs but, his set left me in tears... literally! He sung a song about his grandad and as you may know, if you read my blog, my gramps died a while ago so, I just burst into tears!
After the show, they all hung around so, we could meet them. First we met Dave and he gave me a huge hug after i told him i was left sobbing at his song. (It was a very good hug, just saying!)

 

We then went to meet Edd Plant and we talked about one of his songs called Netherton. It's a place close to where I live and he said he's thinknig of filming the video there! Also, when I showed my nan this photo, she said he looked 'jolly', basically drunk!

 

After that, we went over to Tom Law who is such a sweet person. He took a few minutes to talk to us before ore people came over to him for photos. I thanked him for favouriting quite a few of my tweets before my friend told him, he doesn't favourite hers, he was apologizing for ages, what a cutie! He also gave a very good hug!

Finally, we joined the massive crowd of people that were waiting for photos with BriBry. After waiting a while, I got my photo with him and he looked at it, confiming that it was fine! haha

 

For me, this gig was one of the most amazing ever. It really made me want to carry on with music and youtube so, i'm going to try an teach myself more guitar and it would be really awesome if you subscribed to my youtube channel >>> www.youtube.com/user/LauraSaidHey
I made a video about the Upload Tour so, maybe you could check that out. I also show the merchandise that I got while I was there... click here to watch the video
:D
x

p.s. I'm going to quite a few more gigs this year so, I was wondering if you liked this style of blog, like all about the gig, a bit of a review type thing.... maybe a bit of stalking!

New song.

Here's my newest video which, is alwso my newest song. It's called Gramps...

I hope you like it
xx

I wrote another song... FINALLY!!!!

I wrote a song about my Grandad. It's not all sad and depressing, it's more my memories with him. Here's the lyrics:

I miss it when I’d say I love you and you love yourself.

Calling me Bob, Bill or Fred or something else.
Turning your hearing aid off, just to ignore Nan.
Then saying you could not hear her little plan.
Calling her Dragon but, she’s perfect in your eyes.
Staying up all night so she didn’t cry.
Then you’d work 3 jobs and somehow get by.
By
By.

 CHORUS:

Ohhh

What did I have to say to you?
And Ohhh
I loved you each day.
Ohhh
I miss everything about you.
Everything
Everything
Everything
Everything.

 I miss it when you’d drive and drive far, far away.

Listening to Vivaldi play, oh we should’ve stayed.
Watching deal or no deal and shouting names
Before that was countdown where you’d go and prove your brains.
You were proud of everything your house and your car.
Most of all your family who will go far.
How can I do that now that you’ve said goodbye?
Bye.
Bye.    

 CHORUS

 Seeing you lying there at, 5am

A last kiss at the place that was your end.
Now I’ve said goodbye, I’ll see you soon
Now you’re with them.

 CHORUS

 

 

.... I'll post a link to me playing the song later on once i've uploaded it to the youtube.

 

 

Snow Day!!!

So, as predicted, it snowed today all over the UK! But, my college decided not to close. I got two buses there and walked in the road the whole way there because the pavement as too slippy. There was hardly anybody there and none of my teachers were there. I decided to just go back home to find out that they then decided to close the college... Pointless journey!

Youtube

hey guys!

A few months ago, I created a new youtube channel(just because I didn't like the name of the other one!) and here's the link >> www.youtube.com/user/LauraSaidHey I make vlogs and just record things that happen in my life. If there's any topics you want me to discuss in a vlog then just let me know. Either, comment on here, tell my on youtube or tweet me >> www.twitter.com/LauraSaidHey   It would be really cool if you subscribed to my youtube channel and I'll love you FOREVER because at the moment, I feel like no one's watching and it's not worth doing it etc.... bleh.
Here's my latest video on New Years resolutions >>>

It would be awesome if you watched it. Like it if you like the video and we can chat in the comments. :D What are your new years resolutions?
x

Gramps

In my last post I wrote about how my grandad had been ill but, was recovering in hospital. He was sent home from the hospital and sadly, passed away on the 26th November.
I really wanted him to last until my birthday which was three days after, so I could have those memories and photos but, that didn't happen so, I just have to hold onto all the other memories I have.
My Gramps was one of the most amazing people ever, he was a proud man, proud of his house, car and most of all his family(Mee!!).
He was quite a popular man and everyone he met, liked him so, there were so many people at his funeral, it was nice to see how many people he had known, been friends with and helped.
At least now, he's with my brother in heaven, and they're watching down on us together.

Harry Winston Matthews

07.04.1941 - 26.11.2013